Reminiscing

for the last few months, with my belly growing, and the calendar pages turning, the idea of another baby is becoming more and more real. the other night i couldn't sleep (a common side-effect of pregnancy for me), so i was at the computer. i found myself just mesmerized by pictures of my sweet girl when she was brand new. i honestly have a very hard time remembering her that very little. i LOVED loved Loved watching a few video clips of her that we have in her first couple months, and i was actually remembering, and getting anxious for number two. she looks SOOO completely different to me now! it just really proves that when you spend all day, every day with someone you don't notices how much they change. she is so big now!


dave's grandma past away just last night, after spending the last few days in hospice. she would have been 83 tomorrow. one of the great things about funerals is that family gets to be together. dave's brother and wife flew in from germany the other day, bringing the youngest scott with them. tonight jenna and her sweet cousin steven (only 8 months old) were able to play together. jenna removed his binkie and tried to share hers. she seemed worried when he cried. she laid down next to him on the floor. she got super jealous when i held him in my lap. she pointed out his eyes, nose and ears for all of us and was very excited to rub his hair.
this is her first experience actually playing with a baby. i loved watching it, but it also made me just a little sad. her entire world is about to be completely changed- and she has no idea. i am sure that she will be fine, but will i be okay? i am excited and scared all at the same time for the unknown.

i cannot wait to see my heart grow and watch my first love become the big sister.